2005-07-12 [IzzyKSK]: No problem...

2005-07-16 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: my cousin is in the hospital for anorexia .. im starting to think it like runs in the fmaily or something . cuz ihad issues of it to .

2005-07-16 [Daisy le Fleur]: I'm sorry about your cousin..it must be bad if she's hospitalized. Have you seeked out counseling for it?

2005-07-16 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: yeah shes there for 6 weeks . not on iv or feeding tube so thats good . and no i havent .. im over it .. for the most part ..

2005-08-01 [Daisy le Fleur]: How's your cousin doing Pretty?

2005-08-01 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: im not sure i hacent heard from my grandma lately . Ill be sure to ask soon .

2005-08-01 [Daisy le Fleur]: Good....did you read about Rose? Go to the Members page here..read that..its sad.

2005-08-01 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: oh no i havent . ill be sure and go to it now .. I also found out one of my friends from here past away earlier this year due to anorexia .

2005-08-01 [Daisy le Fleur]: Gosh...its astounding how many people suffer...and for what? I used to think it was about what otheres thought of them....but I think its more of a control issue. The bad part is that, most parents arent even aware anything is wrong until it becomes dangerous.

2005-08-01 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: Yeah . For me it started out that way .. like of what people thought of me . but then i stopped caring about that . But i had lost so many thing in my life at the time ( friends , family, realtionships .. ect ) . that it became a control thing ..eating was the only thing i thought i could control .. But later on i found out . all the time i thought i had more control .. i was really losing it .. . and yeah . most parents dont pay that kind of attention .It took my ex boyfriend saying something to my mom before she noticed i wasnt really eating .. Id make up excuses and lie to her all the time about it .. it made me feel so low and dirty by doing that .. but i felt even worse by eating. 

2005-08-01 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: lately . ive been on anf off with it .. Bu tmy moms been kinda on my back lately .

2005-08-01 [Daisy le Fleur]: I know the feeling, somewhat. I had issues before, but not to the degree to qualify as a disorder..but I was borderline. I'd look inthe mirror and get disgusted because my thighs were too fat or my butt or whatever..and then I'd swear that I was never eating again. But I couldn't follow through with it. My problem was always comparing myself to the girls I went to school with.

2005-08-01 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: yeah im really bad with that . im probably " borderline "now to  mines not as serious this year .. But i still get the habbits .. and yeah im always comparing myself to other people . like why cant i look like her . oh look how skinny she is ..I grew up having a weight issue . everyone argues now that im not fat .. But i still see that am .. and nothing is really " good enough " for me .

2005-08-01 [Daisy le Fleur]: YOu know, I'm a religious person, and whats helped me get over it...is that I realized that God made me this way. If he wanted me to look like so and so....he'd have made me their twin.. I have the qualities and characteristics that no one else has..and even if I am not crazy about my ghetto booty...God made some one for me that would be. *Blushes...my husband sure likes it* hee hee

2005-08-01 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: haha niice . and yeah . im not into the whole religious stuff . But ive been going to church withmy ex . so maybe ill pick something up .. and i know i was made the way i am for some reason . and not to brag . but alot of people seem to like me the way i am .. i just dont seem to .. But lately my boyfriends been helping me alot . showing me that im fine the way i am and all that .

2005-08-01 [morphyguy]: that's cool you have somebody to help you out with it.

2005-08-01 [Oh! Its a Riot xx]: yeah .. it really does help .

2005-08-02 [Daisy le Fleur]: Having a support system makes all the difference. I used to have a really poor self image..low self esteem...but my husband has helped me to see that I am beautiful the way God made me...booty and all. Its good that you are going to church, that will help too. Hey Morphy, hows that appetite coming along? Laying off the morning cigs for breakfast? *pokes you with a stick* I'd better see some Orange Juice in that hand!

2005-08-03 [morphyguy]: Umm..... yeah it's orange juice....

2005-08-12 [Daisy le Fleur]: Im to understand that we recently just lost a member to suicide. I hope that her family will be able to heal from this, and get past it. Check the members page.

2005-08-12 [Zab]: Hi! oh...harsh... Really wish that will be the last..(which it of course won't *sigh*) and for her family to... dunno. Heal, I guess.